6.16.2020 Morning Meditation
Moses heard the people weeping throughout their families, all at the entrances of their tents…For they come weeping to me…I am not able to carry all this people alone, for they are too heavy for me. If this is the way you are going to treat me, put me to death at once—if I have found favour in your sight—and do not let me see my misery….So the Lord said to Moses, ‘Gather for me seventy of the elders of Israel, whom you know to be the elders of the people and officers over them; bring them to the tent of meeting, and have them take their place there with you. I will come down and talk with you there; and I will take some of the spirit that is on you and put it on them; and they shall bear the burden of the people along with you so that you will not bear it all by yourself.Numbers 11
As chaplains, we hear the weeping and burdens of the people. What people go through can be heartbreaking at times. People unload. The pain of loss needs words, actions, and community to be enacted. When the people of God are weeping and sharing their burdens, it’s the priests that are carrying the load, trying to hear what God is saying. To see how God might be providing, delivering, and meeting the needs.
There is a mystery to sharing our burdens and discerning God’s presence. When we have undergone a loss, what are we to do with it? When we weep, how is God with us? What does God do with our pain?
In the Old Testament, it seems like God hears the weeping and responds. In the New Testament, people share their burdens with Jesus and He responds.
It makes me wonder if there is always a response. Sometimes a hidden response that must be discovered. The burden is to be named from as many possible angles. The loss must be named. The pain must be lifted up with cries.
Weeping becomes a spiritual discipline. Yes, a form of prayer. I don’t want to say rote prayers in a time of loss and hardship. I need to weep, cry out, and make my pain known to a God who cares and listens.
Somewhere, I’ve heard that people only turn to God when they’re in need. And to that I say, “SO WHAT!!” Let them turn to God in their despair. Let them turn to God in their deepest losses and pain. The pressures of life are real. The presence of God in community is also real.
This passage helps shape my vocation as a listener and priestly presence. I need part of God’s Spirit to fill me and animate my ears, eyes, thoughts, and feelings. Why? Because and I want to hear with God’s heart. I want to see with God’s eyes. I want think God’s thoughts. And I want feel God’s emotions. My capacities are limited. But God is not limited.
I can’t tell you why, but I deeply care about others. I want to see others healed and made whole. I want to be in their corner, rooting for their lives to flourish. If I feel like that, I wonder how a loving God feels about humanity.
A worship band I played with wrote and arranged this original song. It was birthed from a passage in the book of Revelation. The main line is “Weep no more”. It suggests that as God has introduced us to what Heaven on Earth looks like in the form of Christ Jesus, the ending to the story is that the Lord Jesus has carried and heard all of our burdens. He has conquered all pain and death through his sacrificial life and death.