I’m reading a few books on discernment, specifically because I’m at a place in my life and ministry where I’m asking “God, what is your mission and call for my life.”
I’ve turned to two resources:
Henri Nouwen has reminded me again and again about leaning into the heart of God and his love. These are the most important as we discern. The questions can get heavy. The fears or insecurities of searching for answers can wear on us like heavy towels after a spill. Refreshment comes as we lay the questions at His feet and ask God to help us know His heart and love.
What I tell others who ask these questions, and remind myself with surprising conviction, is this: “God has a very special role for you to fulfill. God wants you to stay close to his heart and to let him guide you. You will know what you are called to do when you have to know it.” New vocations are full of promise. Something very important is in store for us. There is a hidden treasure to discover.
Nouwen, Henri J. M.. Discernment (p. 99).
It’s that middle line that got me: “you will know what you are called to do when you have to know it.” Can I trust that God will reveal it when I need to know it? That’s my prayer today.
As I think about discernment, call, and knowing the heart of Jesus, two thoughts immediately came to mind.
- I’m not someone with all the answers that is present to equip and empower people. But I hope my words, actions, and life do equip and empower others.
- I used to think I needed to have all the answers to people’s questions, mostly so they’d like and admire me. Now I’m okay to say “I don’t know”. I have a few answers, but not all.